Test Test..Joelene! i'm finally able to do this. After wad seems like 2 yrs? hahaa...recently i feel i've grown to be a little- jus a little more techno saavy...muahahhaha

I'm strong. I've picked myself up! :) You'll always be in my heart and i can;t be crying forever.

Now that i'm back, not yet fully, but soon! i wanna thank my friends and family for a special and wonderful 20th bday.

And specially to hans buns - a BIG loving thank you. Thank you for all the "surprises" and efforts, patience and love. Thank you for the wonderful bday present. Thank you for the time. Thank you for your face and voice. Thank you for your shoulders. Thank you for listening. Thank you for your tissues. Thank you for the unlimited tolerance of my nonsense. I love you.

I really love the digicam dar.... i love SONY. I love the white. I love the clarity. I love the userfriendliness. I love the fact that i own a cam now. thank you. :) you owe me two bday cards next year...i dun want no more expensive pressies next yr.

Thank you DANCERS! hahaa...it's the way, the only way i can address you on my blog...to differentiate u from other medicine dudes. :) coz u are special. and u will always be, even when we enter clinical yrs, or graduate and go into practice. :) Thank you for the efforts, the cakes, the lovely birthday card, the MP3 player and the well wishes. Thank you for always being there for me, for helping me with dnd, for keeping the lecture notes and sharing resources, for all the encouragement i recieve all the time, for the good companion and good food, for the openness, for the sisters and the irritating sweet BROTHERs..haha, for everything. My limbo year bday wldn;t have been the same without your blessings. :)

thank you to all who blessed me with overflowing well wishes on mt special day, that could keep me going for another yr before a whole load of new wishes come pouring in. hee...grins satisfied. :) Thank you for all the pressies....the vouchers, MNMs, chocolates, cards, flower, ang baos...hee..thank you!

Now that i'm 20..neither a teen nor a full fledge adult - it's limbo year! Gonna be a great year of fun and learning and more growing up to do, dun u agree ya? hahaha....

I felt quite wierd today, like really really tired coz i haven;t really rested enough, haven't recuperated from the month long exam. It was lonely, i dreaded coming home knowing my dog isn;t around anymore, no welcome barks. Chocolate has been really sad too..i saw him tearing this evening...

but anyhow, tiredness got the better of me i came home early. bummed ard and played with all the new gadgets... i'm settled with the camera, more of less mastered it and read the instructions, online d/l and warranty.

Tmr i will get my hands on the new Zen V plus - it's still charging now. Man..but i can;t find the warranty card, prolly dropped it in my mum's car or joc's car boot...hee, will noe by friday...

i am seriously so SO SO tired...going to bed now..nites peeps. I thank God.

I heard dad cried so profusely for the first time in my 20 yrs of life - exactly 20 yrs. You chose to leave on the early morning of my birthday. Thank you - because that means i will always remember you on my special day.

I love you Raffy. I will always remember you and miss you. Maybe less and less as each day passes by, but you will never be forgotten. I love you. And i thank you.

Sometimes i wish i were a better friend. I wished i had hugged u more. I wished i had tell you more. I wished i hadn't complained about you being smelly and noisy at times. i wished i had patted you more and tell you how much you meant.

I know you know all these because you listened and you felt. Thank you for always listening, especially my O level days, when there was so much ups and downs. I'm sorry i've always been "busy" these days...i am sorry.

All dogs go to Heaven - that's wad they all say. I believe you're in heaven, guarding my family, like as usual. Wait for us, make space because we will meet again who knows when? maybe another 50 yrs? Meanwhile, warm the beds in heaven.

I love you.

In mere 2 days...
Yesterday i saw death. A sudden death of a good friend's dad. A real blow to her and her family, but she's a strong women. God will see her through. Still, i was sad.
Today i saw creation of a new life. Arrival of a new life in 8 months. I am thrilled, excited. I saw life. I saw hope.
Life is amazing, but at the same time it's fragile. We never know when what will happen, but i know we must be happy. We know our days on earth is short. Our purpose is not an earthly one, but be set on eternity. We live to fulfil the plans God has for us. And in this short life, we be happy and bring joy to all around us.
So i still hold to it that at the end of it all, it's not the number of days we have, but the depth of our living days...

oh..taking that good 4 day break has been good..slacked and slept n compensated on piano practice the whole day after having been away from it for two weeks....
the donuts from aussie!! and the glow worms...yum yums..
good break good break..all i can say is good break..now after the kit kat, time to start mugging engine again...father i pray u bless my revision time, may it be a pleasant worship, pleasing to your eyes and comforting to your heart. May my revision be fruitful and smart..keep me in good health and keep the evil one away, keep me from pain. Amen.
i miss my mummy...
hans is bad!
Kim is bak!
Justin is far but near... ;)
daddy is very cutee...
i am smelly..so time for a bath.