Daddy n mummy are back. safe and sound...wheee...they bought SO SO much clothes. Polo raulph, nike, nike and more nike...tommy hilf...wad's with the brands, they pretty and comfortable, nothing against them but i'm not brand conscious tho! i am NOT.
i'm so tired...doing the same ol` routine everyday, but do i HAVE A CHOICE?
i'm so so tired....and still i''m slow, far behind schedule...like wad ny said, if u don;t study everything now, when are u going to do it? after the exams or wait for sub papers...
u gotta make your own sensible choice here..like duh~ jia jia you you nettes!
But for now, goodnight world.
P.S my stomach is growling and i'm starved...shall bear until breakfast. bye
Friday, March 24, 2006
I've been through too much stagnant moments that i need to feel alive again and start experiencing newthings to make myself grow...
i know i used to ask myself what's life about (cliche beginning), how it all started, who was the first man..really, these were burning qtns which thank god were answered by the all time favourite- the bible. I always asked myself how to be a better person, how to live a better life, then i asked myself how to make those who matter around me live better, and i asked how do i live without regrets, and then i asked myself how i should live at all.. Comeon... we all have our fair share of problems.. and i remember saying that living takes more courage than dying... I have so much yet I know I have not a lot...I've learnt we dont learn by just from others.. there's just so much we can think, but when things strike, we will not think about what others have experienced but what we have been through.. isn't that why we say history repeats itself, because we dont learn from it much..
we affect our lives so much not because we choose for it to, but because we cant seem to have choices sometimes.. having choices and choosing the right one is better than having no choice but to stick to it.. But seriously, how many times are we pushed to our wits end, having a gun pointing at our heads when we make a choice. We do have choices but we shoot ourselves in our feet most times, and not having a choice is a bad excuse to bad choices.. we just have to admit that we made it happen, so bear the damn consequences.. Whoever said freedom is free anyways?
We're all screwed up in one way or another, and there's no denial about that for me.. i know that somewhere we err, it's often how we look at it... mistakes down twice isn't stupidity.. we're just stubborn, afterall, we teach persistence in the right things, how do we define right from wrong then.. there's no absolute value in that.the math has to start somewhere.. allocating names to situations simply dont justify or define it's nature..nonsense happens and i get a fair share of exciting nonsense going on once in a while. They are challenges and they are sometimes needed to spice up our otherwise mundane life. haa, don;t u just agree? Obviously, we all can choose to be too damn indifferent about things but do we really want people to be indifferent to us.. we're just ruled by reciprocasy isn't it? we love it and we adore the fact that we need it... we desire ourselves too much to be even proud of it.. we sometimes lose our sense of relativity..
Just some random thoughts here and there about some mails i recieve, about things i go through everyday for a past 2months..or in fact past year..my brain is just messed up now..so writing down these nonsense help me get back my sense of thinking...or rather the thinking sense,,,oh sheesh..what nonsense.
anyway justin is coming for high tea tmr, and i'm so excited!!! :) :) i see him onl average like once every 3 months...with the shopping trips and stayovers and dinnners and what not, i feel closer to him than many of my good friends in Singapore. It's like, we live far from each other, but the efforts to keep up with each other and meet amidst our busy lives make the friendship more valuable and precious to me. thanks bud for always making the effort.
Now study hard nettes!
:: i miss mum and dad::
i know i used to ask myself what's life about (cliche beginning), how it all started, who was the first man..really, these were burning qtns which thank god were answered by the all time favourite- the bible. I always asked myself how to be a better person, how to live a better life, then i asked myself how to make those who matter around me live better, and i asked how do i live without regrets, and then i asked myself how i should live at all.. Comeon... we all have our fair share of problems.. and i remember saying that living takes more courage than dying... I have so much yet I know I have not a lot...I've learnt we dont learn by just from others.. there's just so much we can think, but when things strike, we will not think about what others have experienced but what we have been through.. isn't that why we say history repeats itself, because we dont learn from it much..
we affect our lives so much not because we choose for it to, but because we cant seem to have choices sometimes.. having choices and choosing the right one is better than having no choice but to stick to it.. But seriously, how many times are we pushed to our wits end, having a gun pointing at our heads when we make a choice. We do have choices but we shoot ourselves in our feet most times, and not having a choice is a bad excuse to bad choices.. we just have to admit that we made it happen, so bear the damn consequences.. Whoever said freedom is free anyways?
We're all screwed up in one way or another, and there's no denial about that for me.. i know that somewhere we err, it's often how we look at it... mistakes down twice isn't stupidity.. we're just stubborn, afterall, we teach persistence in the right things, how do we define right from wrong then.. there's no absolute value in that.the math has to start somewhere.. allocating names to situations simply dont justify or define it's nature..nonsense happens and i get a fair share of exciting nonsense going on once in a while. They are challenges and they are sometimes needed to spice up our otherwise mundane life. haa, don;t u just agree? Obviously, we all can choose to be too damn indifferent about things but do we really want people to be indifferent to us.. we're just ruled by reciprocasy isn't it? we love it and we adore the fact that we need it... we desire ourselves too much to be even proud of it.. we sometimes lose our sense of relativity..
Just some random thoughts here and there about some mails i recieve, about things i go through everyday for a past 2months..or in fact past year..my brain is just messed up now..so writing down these nonsense help me get back my sense of thinking...or rather the thinking sense,,,oh sheesh..what nonsense.
anyway justin is coming for high tea tmr, and i'm so excited!!! :) :) i see him onl average like once every 3 months...with the shopping trips and stayovers and dinnners and what not, i feel closer to him than many of my good friends in Singapore. It's like, we live far from each other, but the efforts to keep up with each other and meet amidst our busy lives make the friendship more valuable and precious to me. thanks bud for always making the effort.
Now study hard nettes!
:: i miss mum and dad::
Thursday, March 23, 2006
When u think u can't, u can't.
When u think u won't, u will not.
When u think u mustn't, u must not.
Therefore i think i can, so i can, i will, and i will, i must and i must.
There are times when you think u don't know, dun worry, it's all there.
When u think you cannot, there's stil time left.
When u think it's impossible, your god is bigger than any possible obstacle.
I miss mum n dad. sighs......
When u think u won't, u will not.
When u think u mustn't, u must not.
Therefore i think i can, so i can, i will, and i will, i must and i must.
There are times when you think u don't know, dun worry, it's all there.
When u think you cannot, there's stil time left.
When u think it's impossible, your god is bigger than any possible obstacle.
I miss mum n dad. sighs......
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