Perception is really everything especially when you go out to work and meet all sorts of people, and of course all around us. i have to agree on that totally, it is most of the time what we perceive and what others perceive that is important, so much so that having the right ideas isn't enough, we must have the right way to put it across and the right way to settle the idea in the other person's mind.

It's inconceivable how many standards humans have come up with to apparently be socially correct. This brings us to think about how many things we have to consider when doing somethin, saying somethin that is politically correct and thinking somethin, which makes us mentallysound. Funny huh? Once we go beyond these boundaries, it seems we've crossed over to be unacceptable, outcasts or part of the insane population. However i sincerely doubt the degree of saneness in peopleoutside the asylum. I think it is perfectly normal to be mad sometimes, it's just the degree that people show it on the outside.i believe that all of us possess the ability to be "insane" but it's just a matter of whether we choose to suppress that part of us. For the saying goes, in a mad world, only the mad are sane. That is so true ain't it? madness is relative and so does the things we do...Sharing the Quote:"In individuals, insanity is rare; but in groups, parties, nations andepochs, it is the rule." ---------

Friedrich NietzscheHaha doesn't that just explained everything? haha.. we are plainly setting too many standards for ourselves man.. we just all want to live, happily and carefree but in the midst of searching for our freedom we seem to fall into the trap of finding ourselves more worries. Say we want freedom of rights to own a gun for protectingo urselves, then wouldn't we be exposed to the dangers of being shot by someone else? Sometimes we complain about being in SIngapore, we're restricted by so many regulations and we grumble about having no freedom. But do we really want freedom? with less regulations we have to be self regulated, in other words handle the effects of our freedom. If we want freedom to express ourselves through grafitti, we have to condone these acts on our streets and shop fronts. I think freedom is always an egg and chicken question, which one comes first?Well, i'm not exactly an open person to the extreme, but i certainly cannot stand those pea brains, goody two shoes who just follow instructions or mainstream blindly without ever using their brains.. haha... .. "Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it's time to pause and reflect."If everyone were to be on the majority, who will make a difference? Oh wells.. it's important that we feel acccepted and belonged but sometimes it is essential to have our own ideas and thoughts. Haha but of course if we don't know something, we can learn anytime! we all are learning in one way or another or in one time or another, i just don'tunderstand why sometimes it is so hard to admit failure.. haha.. thishappens to me too ya? and over the years i've learnt that most of the times the person who has the last laugh usually isn't the first winner anyways, so who cares? "in the end, it doesn't even matter...."(Linkin Park?)

Sigh...Good night stars..

nette

It's raining now..i feel down..dunnoe why..i dun think i should feel this way..but i jus do..maybe coz my mummy is away and daddy is on a business trip..sighs,,i really miss them...

My pimples are atrocious, popping out like nobody's business.oh well..this is the heavy price you pay for the heavy consumtion of wad? CHOCOLATES! damned...sighs.....

SAying "i can't help it, but jus crave for them when i feel down or stress" is jus but another convenient excuse...maybe i should jus stop giving these lame excuses for the crave. hahah...but true enough, the only two things that can help relieve stress are Chocolates and hearing han's soothing voice..but maybe i should start finding new and more reliable, or rather healthier methods of relieving stress. Like jogging or packing my room...haha...especially so when eating chocoaltes coz me my pretty face and also Hans's going to be enlisted in no time... sighs.....

Okies...i'd better stop ranting....................................................PErioD!


The Classic IQ Test
What's Your IQ?
Congratulations, Lynette!Your IQ score is 122

This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others. Your Intellectual Type is Inventive Inquisitor. You have the unusual distinction of being equally good at math and verbal skills. This means you are a creative thinker and are uniquely good at teaching others through experiences. You are also a great improviser and very good at handling change.

Well well.true enough

It feels good

This is 100% what i feel...

It feels good to wake up every morning, thinking of that special someone, and knowing that he's thinking of you too..

It feels good to know that there will always be this one person you can count on during trying periods, or weary moment.

It also feels good to know you can disturb the someone special when you're bored, and always get a reply because he loves you too much to not bother or get irritated.

It always feels good to know that you're the first person he looks for on MSN or the first face he tries to pick out from your class picture.

But then it doesn't always feel good like this..what do you expect, fairytale or wad? haha...oh well...i wish.

I hate it when I do something and people just don't give a damn about it.

I hate it when I show concern and people find me a nuisance and try to shut me up. Make me feel it's all my fault. I jus hate it.

This dun always happen...but when it does..i simply hate it...

hahah....suddenly feel like expressing this part of me...

Well..yesterday was good Friday. I really thank god for sending his Son Jesus Christ to come down as a man, to experience all the pain and suffering and insults 2000 years ago. Adn i'm really grateful taht Christ Died for our sins, and on our behalf in order that we may see and commune with God again. I'm really grateful! Amen!

Yesterday was a great day... Came home in the morning to change, went with hans and his family to his aunty's house for lunch. Was cool..food, people, children, place..haha....my hans darling drove me yesterday!!! hahaha...for a short while though, but i still felt happy and like very "grown up", haha, if you understand wad i mean...His driving skill is not bad, only thing is he;s not experienced enough, so a little not confident and jerky when he brakes.hahaha...it's ok..jia you baby!

We went for Starlight at TC for the dance musical in the afternoon..the dancers and plot was really professional and Pastor Eugene's msg was really touching..made me renew my faith and i was touched. Especially after talking to adel and my baby... my younger sister has accepted the faith some time ago already... It was adel espcially..she stayed over at my house last night and i talked to her this monring...For a girl to come from a very very strong and staunch buddhist family, she said she felt very cold and touched after the msg that she actually wanted to "give it a try"..she said the sinner's prayer! praise the lord! I jus hope that this new faith will not affect her relationship with her family and god, you will give me the wisdom and chance to share with her about christ, or even with my own testimony. As for darling baby..he's been to my church's BIG events several times...I'm sure he felt the love of god some some way or another...he also said the sinner's prayer in his heart. i'm sure he meant it. Although his family are not christians, i jus hope he stays in touch with god, talk to him through prayers, not only during bad times, but also thank god for the blessings in his life. Amen!@ happy day...we had dinner with his family at TMCC to post celeb his mumm's 46th Bday..haha..great dinner, great time, great mini mochis!! ahhaha..

Okies, back to today..I'll be pretty busy, completing my UNi appicaitons and essays...giving tuition later...helping weiqi with her work..then for chruch svc then meet wenxiang for some meeting for the CIP project we're invloved in..stress mans..my pimples are coming out, partly coz of stress and partly coz i've been eating tons of chocolates everyday. Actually, i eat lotsa chocolates in the first place becaus i feel stress..so all in all..my pimple are due to High and constant levels of stress...sighs........ahhahaha.

Also applying for melbourne Uni Medicine..as a back up for in case i dun get into NUS medicine...part of me wanna stay ine SIngapore to study and the other part wants to go to Aussie..Melbourne Uni is renoun for Medicine and the Med degree is very well recognised here in Singapore.. In fact there are many reasons why i should stay and why i should go..oh well..i shan't worry too much coz he has already paved the way for me. He knew me even before i was born..i Jus noe it...Like wad the bible says" I know the plans i have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11.

OKies,..i had better go carry on with the essays, and do something to save my face..facial perhaps.......good bye and cherrios!

Netty!!

Yesterday, today and the day before

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i'm trying to forget that i'm addicted to you...

The day before

The day before was a friday. Well, it was just another day for me. Worked and left the office at 6.30. Went over to aunty Mary's house to coach ah long with his science. I had sorethroat. Hmmm...the only special thing that day was....the 9 o'clock serial's last episode. The three sisters are so cute!! haha

Everytime

Yesterday

Yesterday was sarturday, it was also a very very busy and argHh day for me. The day started with..getting up, climbing sleepily outta my bed, i forced myself to wake up, washed up and dragged my feet outta the house. haha..wasn;t that bad lar..i took train all the way down to Bouna Vista Civil College service to take some IQ test for PSC scholarship..wad the crap but It was quite fun, i felt. haha..there, i met annette, weiteen n anotehr VJ girl(forgot her name though). I also made friend with this other girl from ACJC called josephine or Catherine or something..haha

Felt quite lost after the test, coz i dunnoe where exactly i should be at wad time or where to go. Was suppose to meet up with Cherilyn n Wenxiang for the project meeting, so i took a train to Cityhall, walked by myself along Citylink whilst waiting for them, only to realise that both of them were still sleeping. Feeling nothing, i trotted home- I was contemplating shopping by myself till afternoon then go to My boss's house to tuition her daughter, but i was kinda tired. At Kembangan MRT station, i met Paulene...my Pri school best fren...it felt good.hahaha.. As i was walking home, my boss called and said i could go down earlier, asked me to take a cab down....she lives at Springbloom by the way, it's like at some ULU part of Serangoon..sighs...her daughter is a great girl. I kinda like her..helped her with Bio-chem, still having sorethroat.Had lunch at her house and she sent me to town at bout 3 to take a bus to marine parade(church!)

Was totally a "me" day...went to Bouna Vista alone, went to cityhall alone, went home alone, then went to Sergangoon alone (unless u take into account the taxi uncle lar), went to town alone, shopped around at annex herens. Was so surprise to met Yos, Jannel, Kc and kailang there...haha. Okies, when it was nearing 4.30, i took 36 to FCBC. hahaha....the me day stopped right here alas!

Good to spend time alone lar..but i miss noise and miss company too! After church, i met huafeng at cityhall and we went to Amara hotel for dinner with Uncle Goh. There was Uncle, me, hf, linzhi, bang and fat sam. Haha..it was a great time chatting non stop, eating away..We had bouffet.. I ate tons of sashimi..and lotsa icecream. Hmm..we chatted and updated each other our lives.Even shared jokes ...lolx! ShhhhHh

It was a tiring day indeed.

Unbreak my heart

Today

I feel u w y. W a y f f a g a m i t m? s l i to me. y m a m c b b w m n, m i m f. i r dunnoe...

It's been a long long time since i woke up without an alarm bothering me...ahaha..feels great. Woke up this morning, e stae of my sorethroat has escalated...worse now!.with headache too,,,sighs..jus let me NOT Fall ill for consecutively 3 months can or not!!??!!!! sheessh..

Went to coach ah long with his work again...he got test tmr i think...

There's nothing much to do today..jus slack at home..listening and relistening to all the songs on my MP3 playlist....it's relaxing. oh well...tmr's my sis first day at work at my office...i guess i can quit soon..wheee.keke..good bye to all!

Hold me close, dun ever let me go...

Love nettes

P.S: Thanks for the phonecall n for listneing, ai ai...(=

Work life

Working life is so different from my schooling days. I;ts 6.30 right now and i'm still here in the office. Jus an hour ago, everyone in the office gathered in the conference room for a mini party to send off two colleagues who are leaving us and to welcome 4 new colleagues! Me included of coz! ahhaha...We had drinks and food, had curry puff, mini cornetto ice cream, banana cake, new prawn pepper potato chips! It's like our boss talked about she company's achievements, Sandra jus got promoted AGAIN! and the company will be sharing their profits with the staffs, not me of coz..i'm only temporary.

Man..it;s almost 7, and i still can;t go home because i still need to wait for Jane to vet my mail and then i gotta send them out to the exhibitors. Oh well...wad to do..but, this is really spoiling the plans i had planned earlier...i have many many things i wanna do at home...quick quick! Jane quick! hahaha

MY KNEee....

My knee still hurts..wonder why..that area which was bandaged is a little itchy now...that sinseh is really quite lousy lar..sighs...he gave me THREE different types of oral medicine. 9 tablets to be swallowed 3times a day and a bottle of Black chinese medicine! sux man..i really wanna puke each time i drink that..sooo Clever me have decided to stop taking that syrup medcine. sheesh......

I kinda rushed through my MOH scholarship application..sighs...i deserve it if i dun even get shortlisted...but i pray lord that you'll see me through and put me in Medicine! I believe that's the plan you have for me and that i really wanna practice medicine....father you'll grant me whatever i ask for, especially if it';s a big dream and i would be able to impact lives directly next time! hahaha

Right now...me junior approached me to ask me to be part of his team to come up with some brilliant idea and propose to some org. If our idea was accepted, we will be grantd 1600 $$ to execute the project. Hmm..it's a littel confusing now..well not really..the project is to do wiht CIP, something that will help raise funds for charity and non-profitable organisations. My other team mates are Cherily (SMU), Wenxiang(VJ) and huiwen (HCJC) and together, we were from 4 different batches of PA prefectorial board back in dunman high then. hahah..

It's really interesting isn't it...hMM..actually, pesonally, i feel i would be acting more as a facilitator. I'm quite busy with other stuffs already and i agreed to join him because he was so excited and enthusiastic bout the project when he called me up...he said he couldn;t find other ppl..so i din want to disappoint him since he really wanted to do it..Why not? Okies..heehee

The next thing that is worrying me slightly is the GYLC response and sponsorship....and UNi application..actually, more like the Medicine Interview..how should i prepare myself well enough?? i should start really seriosuly prepraring for it...heh I'm gonna write to NUH and ask for a 3-day attachment or sumthing..and i had better send it soon...LYnette!!! Wake up your ideas!!!

sheesh..it;'s 7 already..i think i gotta stay to;; 8..my plans are ruinned...sighs....!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why can;t they give me thigns earlier!!

Helloo...ok, i'm in de office right now. It's supposed to be lunch time, but i din go out with them to eat coz n appetite i guess...It's the first tiem office is so queit, and i'm all alone..cooL! hahah

Today's going to be a very busy day for me... there are so mnany things to do..from the simplest thing like photocopying tons of papers to the wierdest thing like wrapping soveniers for jean to be packed into her lauggage as she's flying off on monday..Why can;t they jus do it themselves..haha..maybe that's why i'm here in de office for...but i feel i'm doing alot...they're raelly making me a worthwhile temp staff heh! squeezing every minute they're paying me for..haha...oh well..wad to do?

Working in this office is good.as in GOOood.."errr..but i feel really really sinful! as in GUILTY! Do YOU NOE EXACTLY HOW MANY TREES I HAVE TO KILL EVERYDAY? or rather DO U NOE HOW MANY TREES I AM FORCED TO SEE KILLED EVERYDAY>? they photocopy so much useless and extra documents, they print out so many documents and many a time, these extra pieces of paper goes into the bin! Not EVEN the recycle bin! they jus throw them into the RUbbISH BIN! To be burnt n incinerated! OH my goodness! I did volunteer to bring home the bags of unwanted papers...but wasn;t allowed coz the papers they photocopied too much are private n confidential and mustn't be seen by their opponents! I mean, due to their carlessnes, neglignence or wad,,lack of communication btw partners in the project, all the greenery are killed for nothing. AND I AM THEIR ACCOMPLICE!!! SIMPLY BECAUSE the extra they dun want were photocopied by ME! n i was instructed by them! oh mans....i"m not Lamenting! i"m CompLianing! You Noe sth! there was this once, that person asked me to photocopy 500 peices of this exhibition hall map, in and the end, she threw them all away because she needed to make changes on the map! DAMNeD! i was like..my HArdwork, labour, electricity, time and all went to waste! Worse still, each time i stood infront of the photocopier, do u even noe how many of MY body cells are killed due to the sickening radiation given off by the photocopier. I mean jus these few weeks here at work, killing trees and being exposed to the radiation everyday could have my life shorten by the DEadly CANCER! DAMned! OKi, and then it would be good for me! Getting my retribution for being their accomplice in the trees killing world destroying act!damned! can;t stand it any longer. can;'t...

i need my chocolate bar right now...wad's the point of getting all worked up coz of this stupid thing...relax girl....dear father, i pray that you'll bless me and watch over me..that everything i do, i remember you as the focal point. I do it for your glory and do it happily. And may my actions be acceptable in your eyes. Amen.

Sighs..i can;t wait for weekend to come. Though i had a full day rest (which also means no work) bacuse of that stupid knock! which could easily have been a world record of the stupidest thing a girl can do! and i shan;t elaborate on that. OK, to cut short, i had MC because i knocked my head against the concrete wall and thought i might have suffered from some sort of a concussion. Oh well.' hahaha.....

apart from some problems i'm encountering in my Cell group now...i hope it had been solved last night..but jus feel that it might have become worse..i dunnoe..it really depends on how receptive she is and how must we're all willing to work towards the common goal and solving the shitty problem.OK, back to wad i was trying to say..apart from this thing which is causing a little unhappiness in my otherwise happy and b;issful life..i am Happy! ahhaa..duh~ going to watch Ah Long's performance at school with my family and hans baby tmr evening. Wheee! SO can;t go for youth svc..nvm, at least there's still sunday svc! that was where i first started church at..hahaha..kind miss sunday svc also..mood and atmosphere is totally differet..i feel lighter when i attend sunday svc...oh well...

i"d better go off to do my work..i have so much to do and so little time left..i totally dun want to be sitting here at this same place tmr lar! coME ON! it's saturday tmr! gimme a break!.hahahaha..i'm only a temp staff.no stress nettes..jus do your best, dun need so ping ming one! hahaha..father in heaven will do the rest for me! heehee

bubyee babies!!!!!!

Here's a story i read about and i wana share with you. A very heart searching article...

Life is More than Winning

Some people understand life better than others. They call some of these people "retarded."

At the Seattle Special Olympics, nine contestants, all physically or mentally disabled, assembled at the starting line for the 100-yard dash. At the gun, they all started out, not exactly in a dash, but with a relish to run the race to the finish and win.

All, that is, except one little boy who stumbled on the asphalt, tumbled over a couple of times, and began to cry. The other eight heard the boy cry. They slowed down and looked back. Then they all turned around and went back...every one of them.

One girl with Down's Syndrome bent down and kissed him and said, "This will make it better." Then all nine linked arms and walked together to the finish line. Everyone in the stadium stood, the cheering went on for several minutes. People who were there are still telling the story.

Why? Because deep down we know this one thing: Life is more than winning for ourselves. What matters in this life is helping others win, even if it means slowing down and changing our course.

"Many things in life will catch your eye, but few will catch your heart, pursue those.."

Yupx, i felt alot bout the story, and am especially excited because i am truly honoured to have a chance to witness special kids olympics this year, held here in Singapore. Hopefully my work contract will end SOON! so i can resume training with my kids!!

Work was fine today,busy like as usual. After work, I took a train down to bugis to have my haircut. Thanks farah, for cutting my hair so well..haha..i walked around the mall, and even bought some stuffs from cold storage. I was alone all these while..the only company i had was baby hans thru SMS. I feel so "grown up" all of a sudden..like am so independent! COOL!. right, i'm still awake, waiting for my dear parents to come home! i really miss them. Sobs...shi shang zhi you mama hao! you ma de hai zi xiang ge bao...the last fews days were difficult, mei you mummY!! sobs...jus din feel very right...was happy bout my A level scores, but mummy wasn't ard to see it first hand or celebrate with me..jus then i felt my results weren;t that fantastic. The past few days were not very easy, many thoughts i had to deal with, many emotions i had to face and resolve..i think i'm much better now. haha..it's always good to set your priorities and principles in life...always good to think thru and noe wad's best!

I'm thinking of my dada again...i miss his adorable face n sweet soothing voice that can melt your heart, esp when u feel down. *Blissful smile* Dearie.....ILY.

tmr's got work again! sighs..haha..but things are much more different tmr! At least my parents are back! hurray! After work going to have jap food with xiao go and zeh zeh! hans invited too..Wel..he's always welcome for any of my family dinners or gatherings anyway..But..dunnoe if he can come..haha. It's ok anyways...we've got a long way to go and i'm not afraid he'll not have de chance..ahhaha

i'll try to go explore for more tertiary education routes and available scholarships....seeya and i'm slping soon...byebyebyebyebyebyebye

hi.

I'm feeling quite tired now...

mentally n physically..maybe if i'd put all my thoughts into actions..i wldn't feel so tired in my brains.ahhahaha

went over to aunt mary's house to coach galvin with his work. Did chem today...QA! coz he has QA test tmr. I was studying with him and rememorising wad i did 3 years ago..everything looks so easy to me..i could solve n explain all the 10yr series qtns..haha..thinking back, i would not have been able to solve it so easily then. oh sheesh...haha

Is it me or wad? sumtimes i can't help but wonder...hahaha..everyone seems to be happily spending time with they bfs/gfs every weekends, having seoul gardens for dinner, watching VCDs, going to the movies, shopping or even doing sports togther..haha....but for me..not even a phonecall...is this a complain? NO la!i'm ok.. jus trying to prove a point...evryone is diff, oh well..i'm cool!
ahhaha

gonna apply for Uni in de next few days.I feel quite loss right now..nv done this alone before.haha..duh~..not sure wad to do...heh...man.i've gotta to be independent!Right!

it's late already..going off to ZzZz, still got work tmr..the whole week infact.I really dunnoe wad to wear for work.sians...hah...after work gonna have a haircut at bugis...have already made an appt with farrah!

goodnite to all.



I'll Stand By You(By Girls Aloud)

Oh, Why You Look So Sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don’t be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through’
cause I’ve seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don’t know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you

So if you’re mad, get mad
Don’t hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I’m a lot like you
When you’re standing at the crossroads
And don’t know which path to choose
Let me come along’
cause even if you’re wrong

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you

Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you
And when...When the night falls on you, baby
You’re feeling all alone
You won’t be on your own

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you

Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you

hello everyone! haven;t really been ard for quite some time le!..oh well, was really quite busy with work the past 1 week or so. Yupx, and last week was sanctification week, so after work every night, had to go all the way to bukit merah for church svc! had a great time with god!

Praise be to god, for being so good to me. By his grace, i did well for A's this time. He's really given me over and above wad i asked for. It was a really though period 3 months ago, the studying, memorising, restudying and practising was a total nightmare. After the whole A's thingy was over, i only asked god to bless me with grades good enough to get me into medicine. In fact, i only asked for 3As 1 B B3 for GP and ungraded for both S papers would even seem decent to me. But praise the lord, i secured 4As and did well in the other papers too!! thank you so much father! *gives myself a pat on the back*

To my friends out there who did well, i'm really happy for you and wish u all success, that we'll cont to work hard and not let the good grades rob us of our humility. As for others who din do so well. think about it, it may be jus another disappointment in life we all need to go through and learn. It'd be ok on de end..and many a time, we'll emerge stronger! ahha.i really love the saying which goe, things that dun kill you make u stronger.yeah! and even if u din meet your own personal targets, i'm sure most of my friends would have done well enough to secure a place in the course they wanna pursue in Uni! Congrats to all..moving to a new chapter of our life, but of coz not leaving behind old memories, old friends and familiar surroundings.

hMmm..had a great long talk with darling hans last night, like all the way to 3am. Woke up early to go to church today, looking so much like a panda in disguise! wahahhaha..settled many issues and really talked to him like never before(okies..that's exagerating.) haha..dear, i love u to bits and pieces, always rem that no matter what u do or wanna pursue..everything u think is right, i'll always second u and be behind u all d way!i jus want the best for you.

right..it's late..i need to go off soon if not i'll be too tired to do my quiet time.hee..going for pedicure tmr morning..sponsored by my pretty mummy..my feets feeling sore and looking horrible now..sth needs to be done bout it..haha..right..shall go off for now..good night ppl! cheerios!